28th Birthday!!!

And I'm officially 28 today!!!

I'm 28 and to be honest I do not know what I'm doing with my life. Not that I have not achieved anything. I'm married, have a wonderful child (and yes, with god's permission, would have another one by July 2010), the marketing manager of a food company, both my parents are still alive, have great siblings, drives a nice car, bought my own apartment, and so far am blessed with a good health.

Yet, I'm not sure what I'm doing with my life. What do I have to look for in 20 years time? Or in 2 years time?

As I'm working for my family, what do I do if I lose any one of them?

I see the company as a whole prospering, but where do I stand when they are big?

Will my siblings rely on me or do I have to look at them being more successful than I am?

I have my own apartment, but would I be able to provide my family with a bigger house if, as a family, we grow bigger?

Will my children be able to depend on me for years to come or would they think that my wife is the more suitable parent?

Though I do exercise quite often, is it enough for my health as I have already been diagnosed with HCM (hypertrophic cardiomyopathy)?

These questions have been playing around in my head for a few days now and up until now, I am unable to find inner peace with myself. I know that these questions could not be answered immediately, but for some reason, I hope that they can.

And due to these questions, I am not enjoying my Birthday so much compared to previous years. Although my family has just made a suprise party for me, which, of course I am very happy, but, as a whole, I am very restless inside.

Allah, please provide me with the light and road for me to take. Amin.

Commitments

Feels like it's been more than a decade since I opened up this blog. Couldn't believe the last date that I posted something here.

Well, let's see what's been happening recently in my life :

1. Got a nice job (well, actually working with my parents as they kept on pressing me to become the succesor. Not that nice actually)

2. Got married. Yeah, in 2007. So, it's been 2 years since then. And what a wonderful time it has been. (Have to write it like this since don't know when the missus would 'accidentally' go through this blog)

3. Got myself a kid. And he's a year older now. You should see him now. Just learned to walk. Now, mummy and daddy are getting enough exercise just keeping up with him. Hmm... Posting up his picture in the next post would be a good idea.

4. Took up golf again. Now, playing wonderfully. Could be at handicap 22 or 23. Hope the handicap will come down more.


Well, that's all from me currently. Chiow...